belonging and dreaming

belonging and dreaming are two things i am wondering about...

in this journey (where we sensed God's leadership) it brought us to redwood covenant church. we like the people we like the place, but we did not anticipate this experience in our pathway. this is the first time i have been a transitional pastor and this is the first time i have been among this tribe. it seemed the place to be at least for awhile (sense we are transitional).

i have often tried to guess what God is up to, and sometimes i have guessed correctly and sometimes it is the last thing i would have imagined. i find myself always learning something about trust. these have always been intriguing lessons. most of the time it seems i can barely keep up, but only if i stay engaged.

i often think of the story of abe and sarah and the way it is worded in hebrews that they followed God even though they did not know where they were going. keep trusting in a promise keeping God no matter what, no matter where, no matter when...it is just as spectacular, as mundane, as vibrant, and as monotonous as all of that and then some.

because my story seems more like a journey...so far...i am wondering what it feels like to experience a place--what belonging might feel like. does anyone really belong anymore? is this just a dream, or a dream that can be true, real, and experienced with others? i think there might be a part of me that is homesick but i am wondering what i am imagining.

as i have grown older there is an emerging sense of this that i have yet to put my finger on. it seems like something i cannot see without glasses. i wondered if it is a longing for something eternal. where might if find some of the eternal in this world. i think i could live with that tasting something partially, seeing in a mirror dimly, and enjoying something while waiting for everything.

right now it means be a transitional pastor.
what will it mean tomorrow?
where will it mean something?